What’s Truly On My Mind
Sometimes it is good to vent… other times it is best to keep it all bottled up inside. Which time is now? I have a lot to say, even more on my mind. The question that keeps stirring in my head is do I talk, write what is in my head, or just hold on and keep it all inside.
Life threw me a curve last year and I am still recovering from the tailspin it set me in. My family stood by me and for that, I will be forever grateful, but it has not been without a cost. I lost my job last year. I was laid off, but that did not seem to make much difference. My pride was hurt. My confidence was shot. I looked around, and all I could see was darkness.
The economy where I live is in shambles. Politicians talk about how the economy is improving, but I have not seen much evidence of that. What jobs are out there are rare despite what the political ads want us to believe. Those that do exist in my field are either “starter jobs” with very little pay, no benefits, and very little future. Positions that I have applied for used to be filled two or three specialists. Now employers fully expect to find one Super Hero with a resume to match to before they will consider hiring someone. This person is not only expected to qualified in just about every aspect of IT, they are expected to have advanced degrees to match, plus years of experience and still be willing to slug it out in the trenches. They are expected to smile, be willing to put in the long hours for half the going salary of two years ago and take on the pressure of doing the work of three individuals.
Please do not underestimate me. I have no problem with working hard, but I learned the hard way that killing myself for a job that really has no loyalty to me as a person, is not wise. I want and am more than capable of working hard, and I will, but I will do so for only one reason, and that one reason is my family. My family, has to, and always will come first. I a job I can take pride in, and still have time my family. That is why, I have decided it is time to take the plunge and work for the only taskmaster who truly understands my motivations, and that is my self. I have decided that my ultimate goal is to run my own company, and be my own boss.
